But I have found myself in you
But you have given me a clue
From the lies
that were once my truth
Am I saved?
Or this is just the start
Of our own suffering
From being a mistake
And a conceiving erratum
Black from all whites
I am different
A complete opposite
Whose heart beats for my same kind
Asking; is it my fault?
That I long for the same color
A princess loving another princess
A girl who had sword behind her dress
I wish you knew,
I wish it was you,
I wish you could see me,
I wish we could be happy.
I wish to exist,
I wish everything, I persist,
I wish you to be near,
I wish you to hold me, dear.
I wasn’t sure if I believe in love
And then here I met you
I wasn’t sure if these feelings last
And then I fell out of the blue.
I smile when I have you close
How I wish my heart to be yours
How strange this feeling, why?
My heart suddenly stops whenever you pass by.
I know you’re just my dream
Yes, funny it may seem
A start I couldn’t reach
Music on its highest pitch.
I was once afraid of falling in love,
You said I should be brave,
I spoke what’s on my mind,
It kept repeating your name.
I saw all that I had to see,
But thy heart only seeks the picture of you and me,
I heard how vexed the sound of pain was,
But I endured it, despite all the past.
I smelled the grief within my soul,
It’s you who completes my whole,
I tasted this bitter sweet complexion of life,
For you and I to stay ignite.
You started to speak with a simple “Hello!”
While I was crying on the other side
You asked me what was wrong
You told me to be strong
My heart could not beat
My mind could not think
I look upon your eyes
You uttered, “He’s not worth a cry”
You hand me a piece of cloth
To wipe my tears, to share my thought
“Who are you?” I quickly asked
“The man that will never hurt you,” you gasp.
I was shocked, I walked away
Then astonished when I saw you on another day
You yelled, “You’re always here”
Here we go again, that’s the one thing I fear.
The sun has risen in pale blue sky,
I see the world out there, I see this guy,
I heard a melody, I heard it breathing,
I know it’s from my body, it kept repeating;
From the corner, I stood,
From afar I looked,
I saw him glance, I saw him smile,
It made me contented for a while
His humble voice,
His eyes undying,
His heart speaks,
His faith that is growing.
From that moment, I became a fan,
Awakened by the sweet voice of this man,
Talking to him will complete the missing,
But thy mind says “no”, my heart continuously kicking.
Deity, here me out.
I know your plan is unknown,
I know everything that happens has a reason
I know my life wasn’t an exemption
In this platform right where I belong
I am once in love with the world
To its untold stories soon to unfold
Delighted with the sun that sets on its horizon
Amazed on how stars shine upon
I am once, but why am I still here?
Dwelling in a place I cannot understand clear
I am hurting, Why am I now in fear?
I am bleeding, Drowning in a sky of tears
As a pained liquid fell down from my left eye
Comes my woes and sighs
Realizing how my life was being controlled
By you-a Deity they once told
Begging, please don’t let me get attached
To what’s not meant for me anymore.
Don’t let me get attached
To something that’s being torn